You know what's really, really sad?

Today I realized my oldest, so-called best friends don't even believe in me anymore. In their mind, I've already failed. I'm just the same old screw-up. No chance.

I've been feeling it for a long time.

I realized it today.

I'm not going to pretend it doesn't affect me, that it's just business as usual. I'm fucking angry, I'm fucking sad. I expected much more.

What do I get?

Couple more daggers in the heart.

Because things are already too easy without my best friends shoving in my face I've failed before.

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"We miss you"

Fuck you, you don't even know me.

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It's just sad.

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Heartache doesn't even feel that bad anymore... lol

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You know what's important here, though?

What's really on my mind?

I meant what I said about these tests. 5 weeks ago I made a decision. No stopping. No turning back.

Hell can break loose.

I'll take it.

I'll push through.

I'll come out the other end. Stronger than ever.

Want to know how I'm so sure?

You guessed it.

"No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. "