Few more random ideas swirling in my head

- Heartache fucking sucks.

Seriously.

I know I have to give time to Time, and all that...

But this fucking sucks.

I'm not going to say this is the worst pain in the world, because it's not.

But it's fucking annoying.

That's what I have to say about it.

- I had a friend trying to catch up with how things are going with me through my cell phone.

What??!

It's not a secret at all I hate that object (and I know the weight of that word). I'm not going to sustain any relationship based on that devil's invention.

If anything in the modern era has gone horribly wrong is the cell phone. (Shit, even evil Facebook stays at home when you go out)

Something that was supposed to make you contactable and closer to everyone in your life has become the central point of relationships. "I have to answer" "Why this person doesn't answer" "Oh my, this person doesn't answer, is he/she alright?" "Why is this person ignoring me?" "Where is this person?" "What is he/she doing?"

Gee... Where are the good old times where people were able to contact their friends, family and lovers without needing to be available 24/7? 

Somehow this became something we can't imagine how we could live without (even though we did, happily, for thousands of years).

And don't get me started on keeping relationships through this emotionless machine... 

If two people want to talk, they should be able to find the time to meet personally.

This is what a cell phone should be a miracle for: "Hi, want to meet tomorrow at XX hours?" "Yes let's meet at YY/No, I have ZZ, can you make it a little later?" "Hi, I'm stuck in traffic and I'll be late XX minutes" "Sorry, something came up and I have to reschedule"

All I'm saying is: my cell belongs in the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean. Unfortunately I have to play along with this charade if I want to belong to this society at all. But there's things I won't do. Society be damn.

- It's interesting that in the middle of my current situation I'm writing some great chapters on a romantic affair between two characters in my book.

Completely unrelated. It's two characters I had no idea where they were going when I created them, they had completely different uses when I started writing them (one of the was supposed to be a soulless, hateful creature), and lately I've been writing a very good story for them. I can't seem to stop writing and having great plot twists ideas for them. I know my opinion is biased, but you should know I don't like what I write that much after I've re-read it a couple hundred times, perfecting it.

These chapters, on the other hand, are shaping up to be more and more fun/good/interesting.

And they have a originalish perfect happy ending planned already. Which is more than what I can say for any of the main characters. (which makes me think I'll probably make these 2 more important in the story)

What I'm saying is... I know writers use their pain to fuel their writing... But I didn't expect that pain to be fueling great happy stories.

I think it's interesting.

- I'm starting to stop smoking.

haha. Now that's a funny story.

But the results seem to be showing themselves.

God is amazing.

I'm seriously terrified with all these amazing changes going on my life.

I KNOW things shouldn't be happening this fast, this... easily.

I'm such a terrified, faithless little creature.

Which goes back to my point: God is amazing.