Today...

... was a good day.

Could have been better if I wasn't fighting all these urges, there are all these things I want and I want them now.

But it was a good day.

You know, there's this dark me that keeps pulling at me, screaming how easy it would be to just say, do, think, selfish things.

"It would be much easier if you do this, if you say that, think about yourself first, everyone else does too."

Sorry, no. Go away. That's not me before, that's certainly not me now.

"See? You get nothing this way. You're going to end up lonely and hurt"

Nope. When you plant seeds you have to wait to reap the fruits. Patience is a virtue I want to build on. Love is now the only answer I want to give, EVEN, yes, EVEN when I'm hurt and/or feeling lonely.

"You can't be serious. I'm not even going to talk to you anymore"

Ok, see you in 5 minutes then?

Haha, I look like a schizophrenic person. No, but seriously, trying to be good is soooo hard. I need to emphasize that a lot to remind me of it.

And for someone with a big imagination it's so easy to try to rationalize selfish decisions, I have to retrace those thoughts to the question: "Am I acting and speaking out of love and honesty?".