Few random thoughts

- A friend, the one I've realized I'll miss the most, told me on Monday how lucky I am to be in my situation. And how I need to capitalize on it. 5 years from now, I'll have responsibilities I don't have now. 10 years from now it'll be even worse. How I don't want to be the 35 year old with a midlife crisis because he doesn't like the life he has.

And I know this. Just, hearing it from someone else seemed to click something in my head.

I'm full of bullshit. I need to find more friends like this. It'll be hard though. I've been really blessed on that front, the bar is fricking high on that.

Know how I'm picky with girls? I realize I'm almost as bad with friends. Luckily the shared feeling of Friendship isn't as hard to attain as the shared feeling of love.

- I feel scared shitless of what's coming up. And I feel excited as I've never been. It's a turmoil of feelings. The sad feelings usually catch up with me at night, but I have a few ideas to battle those.

And cigarettes. Damn. I'm smoking too much.

Well, so far it's been working.

- I feel God in my life, man, it's so amazing. I'll be honest with you, sometimes I doubt it, my Faith shakes, this world had a lot of things to make you doubt and forget God... But when I take a minute to see all the amazing things I've learned and experienced during these last 4 months, it brings me to tears.

- "Nowhere Fast"'s videoclip is so awesome, haha, seriously, when I think about the 80's, about those haircuts, the greasers, the clothes, about the whole decade really, the last word on my mind to describe it is "awesome", but this videoclip... haha!! The singer with the leg banging, the two idiots with the guitars behind her with the douchebag hairdo and suits, moving their shoulders to the beat of the song... It just works...! Gosh Darnit.

Even the piano-man. Lmao! It just fucking works! haha!