Number one (actually, zero, actually, 300 something...)

(I was writing a really good post to kick this off, at Starbucks, and noticed too late that the free Internet was only for 45mins :s)

Anyway, yesterday I got home, played a bit of World of Warcraft (yes, I'm playing that stupid game again, we'll talk about that someday later), and then...

Well...

Let me try to describe this, because it's been happening every 30mins since yesterday around midnight...

Here it goes...

This is really funny. Yes, even to me. Ok, ok, here it is:

Everything is calm, I'm doing something completely trivial, and suddenly my thoughts awake...

"OH CRAP! Not again... Rui... really? This shit again? We've talked about this... DAMMIT. Almost 1 year sober... I thought we were cured of this... Not... Not this... Not again... Dammit...!"

It's a stupid addiction. Even more stupid than World of Warcraft. It's not dirty, it's not detrimental to my health, it's just stupid. And it bothers me like fuck.

Anyway, I've been thinking on the best way of dealing with this... Nothing that'll work comes to mind, yet. But I'm not keeping it on my chest, I'm going to find ways to get this out.

It's funny, I've been at home for the last week and a half, for a bunch of reasons, and yes, I've been a bit closed off from everything and everyone, but I think this crap is going to make me go out again, even if it's not work.

So, tomorrow is booked, Thursday is half-full, Friday depends on either I'm showing to practice tomorrow (I have a schedule conflict with meeting George RR Martin), Saturday and Sunday I'm either working or I'll find something to do, actually, I just remembered something.

Hmm...

Anyway. that's about it for personal shit today :)