Still doing random shit

Quick poll, what should I buy:

- Iphone

- Car

- American Football Equipment

- None of the above, save up for the looming collapse of Portugal

Now, dinner.

6pm. It's not that bad

I ended up doing some more loose ends than I expected.

Little rest while I figure out what I can/have to do today, and tomorrow.

Theme song

Today

Let's get some production too.

Facebooking, e-Mail loose ends and get my finances in order.

Target: 5h30 pm

Oh yes

Then I went out for the rest of the night.

Fuck, I'm tired

I didn't exercise for a gazillion days. Gee. Now, food and miscellaneous crap until 9pm

Now...

30-something minutes to play guitar and relax. Then do some bodyweight exercises and shower. 19h15 sounds good to me.

New theme song until 6pm

Socializing a bit

With brother, dad and gradma. Now let's get back to work. Finish e-mails and clean Bookmarks. 6pm is our target.

Also, how awesome is this:

Almost on schedule

I still have a couple of University e-mails to check, but we're basically done with that. Now a 5-10min pause to rest my eyes, take a huge dump and think on what I'm going to tackle next.

This will be the theme song for a while

Let's tackle...

My e-mails, unanswered Christmas messages and Schedule my next 2 weeks. Let's say... 1 hour for these 3 things. (It's a lot of e-mails)

So...

Nothing productive yet.

So far...

I've been watching how many leagues I already won in Fantasy Football. Reading stuff about it, congratulating other winners and shit like that.

So...

We need to make the next 3 days productive.

It needs to start today, it needs to start now.

Let's turn this blog into a Twitter feed for the next few hours.

I want to be in that numbeeeer

Yey!

I got my war in University.

Just what I wanted. :) :) :) :) :) :)

Awesome.

Full day in Braga

So in a couple of hours, I'm taking a 5 hour bus trip to Braga, to play in my team's first American Football preseason game of 2012.

From work, school, schoolwork and friends, I slept 6 hours from Thursday to Friday, 3 from Friday to Saturday, and so far 3 before Sunday.

Oh, I'm used to sleep 8 to 10... Every night.

Today was a great time for an insomnia visit.

Anyway.

Monday I have to wake up early to go to Social Security AGAIN to understand what the fuck the mean by the last letter they sent me. Then in the afternoon I have work, and at night, school. I hope I have some little time to eat some lunch, but I wouldn't bet on it.

Along the week I'll need to find time to do some more group projects, work, and SLEEP.

Just whining for a bit. Excuse my french.

See you around.

The Dark Knight Rises

ONLY in Summer 2012?

For fuck sake... The world could end by then... Don't keep us waiting...!

Standing up for what's wrong

I'm no hero.

It just boils my blood seeing something unfair happening.

And I'm afraid closing my eyes and pretend it didn't happen won't cut it.

Of course, this could only possibly cost me my ride to University, not getting juicy extra school material and 4 or 5 people, off the few I talk to in Uni, to hate me (they are turning out to be petty people anyway...).

I guess feeling like I live according to my principles is worth all that.

Kanye West - All of the Lights

Probably not the first time I post this.

Still...

Kanye West may be a douchebag (I'm not saying he is btw), but his 'Dark Fantasy' album has moments of pure awesomeness. He deserves recognition at the Grammys.

The Saints also won

That always helps.

A full weekend to American Football

Again, crazy, but... I was in dire need to get all my energy out.

I think it sets up a good week where I'll need to focus, have patience and work hard to have good grades in the first semester.

What I've been focused the most is to create a nice barrier where people can bother me with their shit, but they can't affect my focus.

Can't fail now.

Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girls

Couple notes

Flu is in low gear now.

This whole weekend was for American Football, which is fucking crazy, because I have an exam on Tuesday (sure, it's English, but there's a lot of Tourism technical jargon I have to memorize), and after that I have to finish, or do a presentation of a fucking Group Project 2 out of every 3 days until Dec 21st...

Beautiful women are killing me right now. Every smile, every glance, I'm like... "DAMN!" and a bullet shoots through my chest. I know this has become a trending topic here on the blog, but it is for good reason. I might surrender any day now.

Woke up early

A little better. (At least my throat doesn't hurt so much)

And wrote quite a bit.

By a bit I mean I was 3 hours at this.

Now I need to turn that focus to University stuff.

I just feel like listening to music

"The Gaslight Anthem - Here's Looking at you Kid"

George RR Martin...

... Is a master of surprise.

A fucking flu again

Barely 3 months have passed since last one...

This is bullshit.

A week went by

And the forecast is: next 3 weeks will fly even faster.

Gotta love University.

Awesome!

This is shaping up to be the worst weekend of my life. Or at least the worst for the last 5 years or so...

The worst weekend of your life? Or the best? - Sounds like a challenge to me.

Either I turn this weekend around or I'm going to spend it whining here.

And rename myself, 'Whining McWhiner'.

Human Mind is incredible

Even when you do the right thing, you're honest, you're real, you live up to your ideals, you can still feel guilty as fuck.

It's staggering.

I'm not annoyed, I'm not annoyed...

I'm not annoyed.

I'm not annoyed.

I'm not annoyed.

I'm not FUCKING annoyed.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Ufff. Much better.

Annoyance-proof

Hi! I'm 24.

I'm going to try to start an annoyance-proof version of myself until Sunday.

This ought to be fun.

Skyrim

I need to try this game

Lloyd Banks ft Eminem - Where I'm At

FF smack talk

Still on Fantasy Football

By the way...

Fantasy Football?

I'm a fucking genius at it.

And I'm spending half of the time I was before.

Found a couple of experts opinions I like to gather every week, and then I go with my gut on difficult calls. Been playing out really well so far. I've been winning 3 out of each 4 games, EVERY week.

I'm awesome.

Talk about a sense of pride

Yesterday I promised myself I wouldn't go to sleep until I had all my University stuff printed and organized.

Major success.

I did go to sleep at 6 am though, lol :s

To wake up at 11 am to go do a University Group Project that was cancelled 5 mins before the time.

Gotta love my colleagues.

Still, mustn't grumble.

Crusaders '11

Talk about being 24 tomorrow... Here's a great reason how I know I've been living my life so far.

I imagine myself in 50 years looking at this picture, proud.

I need more pictures for this album.

Instead... Here's a song:

"Uncle Cracker - Follow me" (Remember this?)

I'm 24 next Wednesday

I should whine about it.

Let's get into the Christmas spirit

After all, it's already November...

Greece

Dream Theater - Space-Dye Vest

F Winter

The Kooks - Naive

Pretty good.

A couple of notes

I'm getting pretty tired of these attention seeking women. Seriously, I'm going to make a list of some of the ridiculous shit I've been getting lately, and present it as proof to whoever ends up with me as why I'm such a relationshipophobe.

I fucking hate winter, I really do.

I like living with my parents. Scratch that. I don't mind living with my parents. It's not great, but I don't have to give explanations unless I want to, I pay/take care of my clothing, food and cleaning, and I know it's good for them too, as they'd probably kill themselves or each other if I wasn't around. BUT, this panic and drama whenever my 35 yr old brother does something childish is getting old, and annoys me so much more than my silence whenever they come to talk to me about it, shows.

University is getting pretty much a snoozefest, most of my colleagues are turning out to be unbearable idiots, and I'm getting increasingly anti-social.

My birthday is coming up, I need to get a fucking plan to evade niceties on that day really fucking quick.

I don't know if it is just one thing, or all of the above, but I'm starting to get those idgaf anti-social vibes again. I've been considering turning off cell phones again, but I'll have to think of something else... I'm getting soft. That's what it is.

At least there's one thing keeping me sane: American Football. Bless that shit.

About that ego

It's not that bad, really.

There are some things bigger, stronger than my ego, that crush it in milliseconds:

• My never-ending quest search for my future wife
• The unconditional love of family and friends
• Whenever one of those people, or even a complete stranger does something heroic (I don't mean hollywood heroic, just, simply heroic)
• Knowing how lucky I am to be born in this era, in this country, with all these amazing conditions

To be bold

In my family, we don't have that tradition.

Everyone just aims to be comfortable.

Comfort is good, of course, it's comfy, but if you never leave your comfort zone, you lose on so much... I know this for a fact.

Some of the best things in my life started when I challenged my family's mentality of being comfortable: Scouts, American Football, Road Trips, Dropping out of Law School, Not Accepting Bullshit Relationships.

I want to be BOLDER, to do mistakes of greater boldness, but I feel sucked into this "No, don't aim higher, be here, be comfortable, this is not bad" place. I don't want "not bad", I want fucking GOOD, GREAT. Mediocrity is just not for me. It fucking eats my insides just thinking about it.

I see myself thinking, okay, I'll play a good boy for now, but when I reach this age or that age, or when I leave my parents home, or when I have a decent amount of money...

It feels like I keep delaying it, and I fear somewhere along the way I'll just forget about it and become like these people...

Okay, okay, I have an ego big enough to know that'll never happen, but, I KNOW I'm missing out on mistakes I should be making. It feels this road I'm taking is just a slow, boring road to nowhere. Ten years from now, I'll be thinking, "wow, look at all that time I wasted playing a good boy, doing what I was 'supposed to do'"...

Maybe that's needed, that's important, to make small mistakes, slowly, taking my time and learning along the way... But I feel I can make really bold stuff, and if it fails and I fall on my face, it'll take only a couple of days to get back on my feet and try again.

Anyway, it's just a rant. Note to self: I do need to surround myself with people with this sort of mentality more, and also try to spread it to my group of friends as well.

After re-reading all I just wrote I can safely conclude I still have a gigantic ego. My humble week only worsened it.

Goodbye Facebook?

"Operation Facebook

DATE: November 5, 2011.

TARGET: https://facebook.com

Press:

Twitter : https://twitter.com/OP_Facebook

http://piratepad.net/YCPcpwrl09

Irc.Anonops.Li #OpFaceBook

Message:

Attention citizens of the world,

We wish to get your attention, hoping you heed the warnings as follows:

Your medium of communication you all so dearly adore will be destroyed. If you are a willing hacktivist or a guy who just wants to protect the freedom of information then join the cause and kill facebook for the sake of your own privacy.

Facebook has been selling information to government agencies and giving clandestine access to information security firms so that they can spy on people from all around the world. Some of these so-called whitehat infosec firms are working for authoritarian governments, such as those of Egypt and Syria.

Everything you do on Facebook stays on Facebook regardless of your “privacy” settings, and deleting your account is impossible, even if you “delete” your account, all your personal info stays on Facebook and can be recovered at any time. Changing the privacy settings to make your Facebook account more “private” is also a delusion. Facebook knows more about you than your family.

http://www.physorg.com/news170614271.html

http://itgrunts.com/2010/10/07/facebook-steals-numbers-and-data-from-your-iphone/

You cannot hide from the reality in which you, the people of the internet, live in. Facebook is the opposite of the Antisec cause. You are not safe from them nor from any government. One day you will look back on this and realise what we have done here is right, you will thank the rulers of the internet, we are not harming you but saving you.

The riots are underway. It is not a battle over the future of privacy and publicity. It is a battle for choice and informed consent. It’s unfolding because people are being raped, tickled, molested, and confused into doing things where they don’t understand the consequences. Facebook keeps saying that it gives users choices, but that is completely false. It gives users the illusion of and hides the details away from them “for their own good” while they then make millions off of you. When a service is “free,” it really means they’re making money off of you and your information.

Think for a while and prepare for a day that will go down in history. November 5 2011, #opfacebook . Engaged.

This is our world now. We exist without nationality, without religious bias. We have the right to not be surveilled, not be stalked, and not be used for profit. We have the right to not live as slaves.

We are anonymous

We are legion

We do not forgive

We do not forget

Expect us"

(A small part of me is rooting for these guys)

5th of November

Snark

This is very needed. Not just on the Internet.

God exists

And he seems to have a great sense of humor.

November 1st - All Saints Day

Did you know this was also the day New Orleans was awarded a NFL Team?

So, in November 1st, 1966, the New Orleans Saints are born.

Their first victory was only a year later though, November 5th, 1967: http://www.nfl.com/videos/auto/09000d5d823ae33a/This-Day-in-Football-The-Saints-are-born

Mumford and Sons

Sigh no more

Think about it

Can you believe this bull?

Saints lost against the winless Rams.

http://www.nfl.com/videos/auto/09000d5d823a2b3a/GameDay-Saints-vs-Rams-highlights

Worse thing is, every commentator just wants to talk about it. We get it, the Saints came of a perfect game, and on this one they laid an egg.

It happens, get over it.

P.S. Our Defense needs to stop the run. This is a bullshit loss we can learn something from.

Humility (somewhat seriously now)

Dunno what the fuck is wrong

With image size on blogger, but I'm not going to spend any more seconds trying to fix it...

Humility

Ego

I'm a smart guy.

Seriously, I am.

But I'm not the genius I sometimes think I am.

Not even fucking close.

I'm athletic, yes, but I'm not an athlete.

Not even fucking close either.

I'm average good-looking, not Brad Pitt.

Not even the same species.

I'm a good guy, I've proven it time and time again, I have principles, but I'm not better than anyone else because of it.

Thing is, should I accept things as they are and be happy with it? Sorry, I can't do it. Somehow, somewhere, someone must've fucked up my education, because I can't accept normalcy, and don't mention mediocrity to me. I have to be better. I have to be much better.

I hate the feeling I'm being lazy or that my day wasn't productive, I can't stand the fact I'm not up-to-date on subjects I have a great interest in, I WILL NOT accept a bullshit relationship in my life, and even if I'm not exactly sure where I'm going, what I'm going to do, at least there's a core of ideas/principles that will make sure I'm not lost, those things will put me in the right direction. I know I'm going somewhere, somewhere I want to be.

Problem is, this makes me excessively focused on myself.

Egocentric.

That idea of what is right for me, is right for everyone, they're just not willing to put the effort in. There's some truth to some of those things, but, the excess focusing on me thing... It's unhealthy and just plain BAD...

Humility goes a longer way.

Not to mention it is much better to improve myself.

Weekly Challenges

Last week was miserable, only the 'look in the eyes' one was somewhat respected. I didn't write a single word and I only managed 3 days of staying away from tobacco.

To my defense, that week finished with a weekend from hell.

This week, the challenges are:

- 3k ATOKAM (again)

- Humble posture towards other people (which yesterday I already failed miserably, but I'm soldiering on, because it only proves how big a challenge this is for me)

P.s: Still, besides the weekend which fucked it all up, my week was god darn pretty good in all fields and point systems.

Back in Black

Lewis Black is awesome.

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Epic

To be watched until you stop laughing.

Talk about Home, I saw a great Documentary last night

It was called "Home".

Freaking amazing.

Full here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqxENMKaeCU

And... A song

No Big Sean... Today.

Instead, "Mumford and Sons - Home"

Let's clear the air with a bit of religion

(III)

(||)

Now that we're on that subject...

Someone should explain me...

Why the fuck do I fall in love so easily, and yet it's so hard to fall out of it.

Like, what are my psychological issues or evolutionary needs that lead to it.

Luckily, I've learned to distance myself, see the absurdity of it, and laugh my ass off.

Still, this is bullshit...

NFL Legend

Let me introduce to you, Deion "Prime Time" Sanders. One of the best DBs to ever play the game.

And the music is awesome too. "Chiddy Bang - Opposite of Adults"

Weekly Challenges

Did I mention that after 2 months completely disorganized, I'm back with a new 25 point system and restarted the weekly challenges?

Last week:

Foolish Challenge: Complete 7 games in Madden08, in a season I started with some friends on vacation, and post it with funny shit on our blog. - I did 3, then the week went too fast, I'll complete more outside the challenge thing soon :s

Challenging Challenge: Ask myself all the time, "Am I being truthful? Am I being mediocre?" - Fulfilled. Pretty good.

This week:

Foolish Challenge: Meeting people's eyes when talking to them. (Repetition, but I feel it's interesting)

Challenging Challenge: Write 3k words on ATOKAM (my book). Hoping this revives my writing.

EDIT: Extra Weekly Challenge (for this week): No Tobacco + No Alcohol.

Tom Morello

Sorry the sound sucks, but this guy speaks volumes.

“Much like the President, I am half Kenyan. Like the President, I’m a Harvard graduate. Like the President, I’m from Illinois. And, like the President, I’ve been on the cover of Rolling Stone Magazine. I got a message for him. ‘Dude, it’s time to grow a pair. A lot of people who put you in office put you in office to fight for them; to fight against the Tea Party; to fight against this bullshit in Congress; to fight against those sons of bitches who are attacking the working class and the poor in this country.’ And he hasn’t done any of it.

At the same time, I’m not waiting for him. I’m with the people in Madison. I’m with the people who are occupying Wall Street. That’s what my music’s about. When progressive, radical or even revolutionary changes happen in this country, it’s come from below. When women got the right to vote, when lunch counters were desegregated, it was people you do not read about in history books who stood up in their place and their time for what they believe.”

On a more serious note...

A picture is worth a thousand feelings.

Jesus Stuff

Political stuff

Predictable. Completely. Fucking. Predictable.

I'm exhausted, and my brain decides its the perfect time to give me an insomnia.

At least it has let me sleep a couple of hours.

It shouldn't surprise me, because my life is a comedy, and this is what happens in comedies.

Yup, some people complain their life is a Greek tragedy, mine is a comedy. Not even a romantic comedy. Well, lately maybe one of those new bromance types.

And I'm not even complaining.

Sometimes it just becomes annoying my character is the weird kid that every silly situation happens to him.

At least it's a kid with fucking swagger breathing in and out of him.

And epic background theme music.

Am I right Big Sean?

Laughing my ass off!