Ego

I'm a smart guy.

Seriously, I am.

But I'm not the genius I sometimes think I am.

Not even fucking close.

I'm athletic, yes, but I'm not an athlete.

Not even fucking close either.

I'm average good-looking, not Brad Pitt.

Not even the same species.

I'm a good guy, I've proven it time and time again, I have principles, but I'm not better than anyone else because of it.

Thing is, should I accept things as they are and be happy with it? Sorry, I can't do it. Somehow, somewhere, someone must've fucked up my education, because I can't accept normalcy, and don't mention mediocrity to me. I have to be better. I have to be much better.

I hate the feeling I'm being lazy or that my day wasn't productive, I can't stand the fact I'm not up-to-date on subjects I have a great interest in, I WILL NOT accept a bullshit relationship in my life, and even if I'm not exactly sure where I'm going, what I'm going to do, at least there's a core of ideas/principles that will make sure I'm not lost, those things will put me in the right direction. I know I'm going somewhere, somewhere I want to be.

Problem is, this makes me excessively focused on myself.

Egocentric.

That idea of what is right for me, is right for everyone, they're just not willing to put the effort in. There's some truth to some of those things, but, the excess focusing on me thing... It's unhealthy and just plain BAD...

Humility goes a longer way.

Not to mention it is much better to improve myself.