7 and a half weeks.

Not one boring day.

I can see how God carefully stacks my days, with major and minor things. Most incredibly fascinating, some excruciatingly testing. All in all a great balance. Not more than I can take, not less than I need to grow, quickly, rightly.

Christian-like.

Yesterday I had another great day where I could use my own tests and personal experiences to encourage and help others.

Awesome feeling.

I have this confidence I've been obedient to Him, that I've been praying and following through with His plan for me, although I can't help but have some doubts here and there. After all, I am fearful, a sinner and undeserving.

This doubt helps keeping me in check. Makes sure I go through extra lengths to ensure I pay attention to His commands.

I'd just rather not fail Him. I'm so scared of doing so. I'm aware I'll fail somewhere in the future, probably a lot of times, I'm not perfect, but hopefully, if I'm paying attention, if I'm careful and I spend enough time with Him, His words, and His followers, I don't fail in anything big, and the least times possible.

On a more personal note, there's one area where He has come through for me really, really big, an area where I've struggled all my life: Love.

What I've been able to accomplish on that area, how I can look back some weeks ago and remember the pain I went through and how I was able to react out of Love, Honesty, Patience, and reach the point where I am right now...

I can't put down in words how impressed I am with myself, when I have Him on my side.

And it reassures me He'll come through in other areas I've struggled.

It's so humbling.

It's so powerful.

How can I ever repay Him and become deserving of his approval and His blessings...?

Question for the ages.