Dayummm

I haven't written here in a long long time.

I've been writing, a lot (!), just not here.

First of all, I need to say something that has been on my mind for the longest time: the part of that post where I go on a rant about smart phones... Is stupid. I won't erase it, but let's just make sure everyone knows it.

Now, what has been going on in my life?

My days keep being filled with so many good things, oh man... So many...! I also had a week of Football Camp, that was both awesome and sucked. I'll go into detail some day later.

There's been also a lot of trials. I start to get the feeling God is pouring so many good things on my life, so fast, because there are hard times on the way. Very hard times. Hard choices, hard changes, hard sacrifices. I can see the storm on the horizon.

It's all good. What I said before, I say again: hell can break loose and God's strength inside me will keep my head up. And I'll come out of all of it stronger.

I WANT TO SEEE BATMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.

:cryface:

(Sigh)

Hard sacrifices I tell you... ;)

Patience, Rui, patience.

Where is the love?

What's wrong with the world, mama?

People living like they ain't got no mamas

I think the whole world addicted to the drama

Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma

Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism

But we still got terrorists here living

In the USA, the big CIA

The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK

But if you only have love for your own race

Then you only leave space to discriminate

And to discriminate only generates hate

And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah

Badness is what you demonstrate

And that's exactly how anger works and operates

Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight

Take control of your mind and meditate

Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killing, people dying

Children hurt and you hear them crying

Can you practice what you preach?

And would you turn the other cheek?

Father, Father, Father, help us

Send some guidance from above

'Cause people got me, got me questioning:

Where's the love? (Love)

7 and a half weeks.

Not one boring day.

I can see how God carefully stacks my days, with major and minor things. Most incredibly fascinating, some excruciatingly testing. All in all a great balance. Not more than I can take, not less than I need to grow, quickly, rightly.

Christian-like.

Yesterday I had another great day where I could use my own tests and personal experiences to encourage and help others.

Awesome feeling.

I have this confidence I've been obedient to Him, that I've been praying and following through with His plan for me, although I can't help but have some doubts here and there. After all, I am fearful, a sinner and undeserving.

This doubt helps keeping me in check. Makes sure I go through extra lengths to ensure I pay attention to His commands.

I'd just rather not fail Him. I'm so scared of doing so. I'm aware I'll fail somewhere in the future, probably a lot of times, I'm not perfect, but hopefully, if I'm paying attention, if I'm careful and I spend enough time with Him, His words, and His followers, I don't fail in anything big, and the least times possible.

On a more personal note, there's one area where He has come through for me really, really big, an area where I've struggled all my life: Love.

What I've been able to accomplish on that area, how I can look back some weeks ago and remember the pain I went through and how I was able to react out of Love, Honesty, Patience, and reach the point where I am right now...

I can't put down in words how impressed I am with myself, when I have Him on my side.

And it reassures me He'll come through in other areas I've struggled.

It's so humbling.

It's so powerful.

How can I ever repay Him and become deserving of his approval and His blessings...?

Question for the ages.